hardest thing to say... T_T

gasping hardly for fresh air..

started to think about the past..

missing to death those great moments..

wondering if that person think de same..

or,,

maybe i'm de only one who felt this way,..

e seems very happy now..

surrounded with lot of friends who cares about e,,

making e forgetting me day after day....

yet,,i'm still here waiting for e..

i know,,i should keep myself close to e,,

but...i can't help it...

maybe e don't need me anymore..

the way e look at me,,

the way e talk to me..

the way e treats me....

obviously,,

e's not the person that i used to know....

approaching e is the hardest thing to do..

now,,,.

laughing,,talking and nagging to you...

will never be the same like before...

and this makes my heart aching badly..

now,,i'm OFFICIALLY e's past bf..

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what makes me puzzling around is,,

am i means nothing to e??

don't throw me away E!!!

am i just e's past??

am i not good enough for e??

is e never think about me at all??

seriously,,,,

whhy???WHHHHYYYY????

WHY E'S ACTING LIKE THAT???

still,,,

whatever happen to our friendship,,

i'll always remember u'r kindness...

long time a go....

u hold my hand and walk along the road with me..

whenever i felt so lost,,

u'll said,,"it's ok,,u still have me.. :)"

whenever the whole world against me,,

u'll said,,"i'm always on ur side buddy!!"

e,,i'll still remember u as my......

BFF&EEEE-TDEODW!!

e,,u know what's the saddest thing is??

the thing is,,the sweetest time between u and me have past long time a go,,

and now,,,

i'm all alone... :(

e,,

i'm not a perfect person..

there's many things i wish i didn't do...

but i continue learning..

i never meant to do those things to you...

and so i've to say before i go...

that i just want you to know..

i've found a reason for me...

to change who i used to be...

a reason to start over new...

AND THE REASON IS YOU..!!!

i'm sorry that i hurt you..

it's something i must live with everyday..

and all the pain i put you through..

i wish that i could take it all away..

and be the one who catches all your tears..

thats why i need u to hear,,

i've found a reason to show

a side of me you didn't know..

a reason for all that i do...

and the reason is you........

T_T

owh Allah,,it's hard to keep it up.....

a long journey without e..

trying to act like i'm okay with all sort of things..

pretending like i'm strong to live alone..

but...

can't help it....

i'm still missing u....

e,,

may u happy always with your new friends.....

salam...

T_T